(Draft) Demistifying Nature Of "Responsibility"

(Draft) What and Why is Responsibility? How important is it in human's life?

TLDR: This is DRAFT. Will be coming soon as a polished version

I'm trying to think through, how important is having responsibilities and making commitments in life? What's the virtue that comes out of it? In this essay i'm trying to answer the question if living a life without responsibilities and commitments is really bad? Will one end up in a bad cause if not taking responsibilities and commitments?

The idea of this essay came from my conversation with my father - about how i should be taking much more responsiblities and how much will taking them would improve my quality of life. How it would benefit me. Of course, as most of the children-father relationship, i've started thinking - "Come on pops, i'm a grown up man, i've already figured shit out, you are being overly dramatic. I have responsibilities and i'm commited to serving these resonpsibilities.". But now - after a day from this conversation, i'm thinking - is this really so? Do i have enough responsibilities in my life? Maybe some of the things that i think i have responsibilities around - aren't even that real responsibilities and i've just left them uninspected for long periods of times?

So in this essay, i'll try to understand deeply - what the responsibility is at it's core and how important is it in one's life. And hopefully after reflecting on my current state - with this inforamtion, i'll have some kind of a plan on what to change or how to change it.

First of all, i want to dive deep into understanding what is the meaning of responsibility. What's at the core of it. As i understand it has a lot to do with the ownership of someone or something. It's something like having a system, where you consistently (and not one time) contribute with your resources to keep it in a sane state, and you don't let your reactive self dictate you. Meaning that you contribute to the system even when:

You haven't had a good sleep
You are having a bad day
You are tired

To better understand the idea of responsibility. It's usually a 2 step things:

Understanding and saying that you take resonsibility over something or someone
Actually being consistent and commited to your responsibility

To cover the first part - Decision Making Phase Of Responsibility - When does a person say to himself: "Yes, i'll take a responsibility over that" or "No, i won't take a responsibility for that". All of us have an inner scale of importance for things and everyone and everything that happens around us have some kind of a value on this abstract scale. Let's say - being in tact with your family might score 10 (or lower for some people) and being in tact with some random person you met couple of years ago might score much lower like 2. For each and everyone of us - this scale is subjective. Since we've all had very subjective experiences in life - every event scores differently for every one of us. Basically saying - we always interpret if something or someone should be our responsibility based on this scale that we have. If it scores high - it's something important and we are responsible. If it scores low - we don't care about it.

To cover the second part - Execution Of Responsibility - After you've acknowledged that something is your responsibility then it's a process of staying commited to it and being disciplined enough to don't forget/overlook importance of consistently contributing to the system in need. This second part is also very important since, even if you acknowledge the importance of taking responsibility of something and then fail to be consistent in it - then you're just lying to yourself in the first place.

So basically saying without the first step, you won't even have the ability to trying to be consistent for taking a responsibility and without the second part, it's just a sweet talk and empty decision making.

Up to now, we've covered the basic nature of responsibility, but now comes a really important part. The first step, decision making, of taking on a responsibility isn't a uniform thing it human's world it exists as 2 distinct types:

Ones you consciously take on your own
Ones that your environment assigns you to (which is a fencier way to say: Ones that because of some reason you percieve as responsibility that you must commit to)

Is life without any responsibilities and commitments - just a wasted life?